Everyday Blogs

its gain been a while since i have blogged. this is a place that i come to when i am at a point of contemplation and useless obsessive thought. its a place for me to be in retrospect.somehow i just never seem to see a sort of steadiness in my life. its very much like a roller coaster. i can go through a multiple of mood swings in a day. but at the end of the day somehow i am not content. its always a trade off that comes to me. maybe its the way i choose it to be. its just a 100% channelizations of my energies into tasks or people where i put in everything and expect a lot and expectations never yield any good. its never what u sow is what u reap when it comes to sowing the good stuff. this is a fairly pessimistic point of view but thats the present state of mind. :)

its almost been a year since i blogged.things have changed over the last year. thinngs have gotten better from a lightless tunnel to a tunnel with light at the end. but still a long way to go and who knows when the tunnel might plummet down and it will not kill me but jus suffocate and keep me alive. but living in the present things are not as merry as they could be but yes not gloomy. things now are very plain and nothing really much seems to happen in hyd. its a place filled with sad boring people. and i have a whole set of tests at work next week. i hate studying for tests. they freak the hell outta me. got to go for a bath.

i am sleepy depressed n met my true best fren jus now

well what a day.23 years back i set butt onto this planet.feel i am gettin old now.but then not so wise.been a miserable year the last year.a manima in my life and hoping it will be an absolute one.it all leads to a woman as usual.so if u find someone walkin around the place saying women r evil thats me.A new year comes.was a miserable birthday no cake no frens.the place i am in sucks.its so new so different.i jus don belong here.feels bad that no one came over to wish me.at leat i got the calls which was a nice thing.though no unxpected callers.hoping for a good year ahead.still got a load of the lull of the previous year.insomnia is at its peak.hopin for a new lease on life.